,

I despise medical students who make jokes about patients.

"It's always been you."

想尽快把小说写完，不再重复悲伤，不再难受，不再毫无回报地想念。但想多了就回不去几年前纯真的速度。

6.2.17

She said I'm always good at rebutting, rendering the other party speechless, awing all standing or sitting audience. That day she told me I can be the diva like her, taking away the attention of the whole room. But I am no longer a debater that day onward. I'm an introvert by nature. I don't argue with people I don't care about anymore. I just want to write for people I love. 

I stop arguing. I stop letting me ego and pride get into our way. In front of you I'm a person without dignity. But love still doesn't work out. And I still don't understand. 

K,

最近在赶稿所以最近在回忆。只有1个月不到的时间，我计算每一天必须偿还的文字债，在月历画下痕迹。一个月总有几天特别嗜睡。我很讨厌像现在明明很累了还要逼自己做应该完成的事情。和熬夜念书一样的心情，但进度难叵。以上。