My splitting likes and dislikes

How am I liking CCT, you asked. 

I am unsure if I like it. 
But I am unsure how objective I am. 

I like how my clinic time can be rearranged so that I get peaceful RDO and lectures. 
I like how my phone stops buzzing at anytime (although the emails never stop). I like how I finally get to have an uninterrupted proper lunch break. 
I like how I still can take tram to work.
I like most of the case managers I work with. I like how kind most people are. 

I like how I feel less physically exhausted after work, that I some reserve of energy to study. 

I like how I no longer get an SBAR email informing me of a seclusion review that I need to do at 8.15am.

I like to see patients that I know from the ward. I like to see how they have improved.
I feel impressed and creeped at the same time, by how I can suddenly recall one small detail about them from their admission. 
I like to know that they remember me as well. 

I like to see patients who are willing to engage with us. 

I like the independent clinical space when I was forced to think on my own. 

I dislike like my overthinking.
I dislike my obsessiveness and my routine clinic note with 5 versions of it.  
I dislike the ruminations that follow me to my home and bedtime. 
I dislike having to catch the moment the consultant is available in the office for discussion. 

I dislike feeling helpless and stuck for the patients. 
I dislike not knowing what to do or if I have done well enough. 

I dislike being interrupted by case managers at anytime for random jobs for random patients (but this is part of my job).
I dislike the sensory overstimulation in Case Reviews. 
I dislike how CCT is meant to be a more relaxing rotation but I can't actually feel it. 

I dislike feeling detached. 
I dislike having to say goodbye.