How can you walk in and out of my life

--- like my heart will not fall into unrecognizable pieces again and again.

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You know, in the past many hundred days, I thought I would cry when I’m lucky enough to see you again. And then when it happened, I realized I will only cry when I can no longer see you anymore.

We were 18 then. We are almost 21 now. Why am I still the same person to you, and different at the same time. Why do I still see a child in front of me, no matter how hard you try to be a changed person. And the words you told me 2 years ago repeated themselves in my ear over and over again. Sometimes I hope I am able to forget everything you told me, everything you did for me consciously and unconsciously.

Then only I can start to believe, that forever is just a naive joke and temporary delusion.